I was having a conversation with a friend at the gym when he asked me something. “Does your current work fulfill you?” My response was a surprisingly quick “no”. I feel like I’m in a box that I’m not meant to be in. I expressed that my body is telling me that I’m here to serve thousands of people, not just one at a time. We then went on to discuss the deep interpersonal work that I’d been doing over the last few years. He followed with a profound statement: “your body is awake.”
What this meant for me
Awake! Such a true word to describe what I have been working so hard to achieve. On reflection, I felt like I hadn’t ever fully listened to what my body was telling me. I may have followed my intuition regarding certain paths, but I realized I hadn’t ever thought that in-depth about my daily life. I asked myself if I was serving myself, or just what others expected of me, and the sad answer was doing what I was expected and serving others.
So I started working on my self-awareness. Started paying attention to the things that I subconsciously told myself. My negative self-talk.
For example, one of my most important aspirations was to create online courses to educate women about breaking the patterns of burnout and freeing themselves from hustle culture. I wanted to help them achieve the life that they were meant to live. I asked myself who I was to teach people about this, I worried that I wasn’t capable of being successful outside the medical industry and working for someone else. I feared failing people. But all of these thoughts were created in my mind. None of it was factual.
I am fully capable of helping people open up to seeing the life that feels right for them and achieving greatness. I have created a successful company on my own outside of direct medical care. I will not fail people if I give them the tools that I know work. And it is up to them to do the work just as I have to achieve what I have achieved.
The take away
I wanted to share this with you because I hope that your body is also awake. And if not, I hope that I can help you achieve this kind of awareness.
Keep an eye out: I’ll be sharing some reflective questions to help you discover where some of your negative self-talk may come from and how to reframe it.
